Escapism

I was told that solitary confinement can cause delusion and self-destruction
But somehow I choose to isolate myself and be alone in my thoughts
And I love it for a while
Then I get insomnia and anxiety and have to pull myself back into the world
With people, and friends, and parents
And I love it for a while
Then I get sick and tired, and irritated
And try again to escape
This is circular, repetitive motion
That's life sometimes

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

this is in human's gene.

Anonymous said...

^ or rather it's in the human condition

Seraphina said...

I feel the same way. I have a love hate relationship with being alone because on the one hand I love having the freedom to think about things, but on the other hand those same thoughts consume and eventually affect me negatively.

e said...

sooj, solitude is beautiful but life is more so.
i don't know what you're going through right now but i hope you remember that you're a very special and important person. you're a role model to many people, but at the same time, that doesn't mean you have to sacrifice your own beliefs to please others. keep doing what you love and disregard the negativity of others. they are unimportant to your life. you are loved! hwaiting. xx

Mikayel said...

Art is dulling as we move forward. Something needs to be done. The next move is happening soon.

fiqahlee88 said...

that sounds like a normal circle :P

Unknown said...

That happens to me and I prefer being alone because I don't trust in people, they can be very mean. But it's impossible being isolated so much time, we are social animals. I love your pics I think you are very pretty and reading this makes me love you :)

Anonymous said...

I love you. I miss you.

Anonymous said...

You have a beautiful life as a model. It's warming to come across this and realize how real and human the best models are.